hatred recall

ok i have overcome the negativity of yesterday. i guess it was a bad day to say the least. it started out with my clinical preceptor pulling me aside to have a talk with me about how i "need to be more enthusiastic and engaged".  i was so thrown off bc if there is one thing i am, it is enthusiastic and engaged. i really dont think i even know anyone more enthusiastic or engaged than me. I mean, i feel extreme joy from watching those commercials where they stain a table with a thick paintbrush with varnish. how could someone like that be deemed unenthusiastic? ugh... just bad timing i guess. with all the hope and strength ive been trying to channel through this hard ass time in my life the last thing i needed was someone to tell me that i need to pep up. 

on another note... later on that day i was in the kitchen at work drinking water out of a paper cup and i saw with my peripheral vision what i thought was a dark hole in the counter (like those built in garbage holes where you throw ur trash in) but really it was a black plate. and as this woman was turning to put her bagel on the plate i threw my empty cup at her plate (cuz i was trying to throw it out) and it just like bounced off and it was really ackward. i tried to explain i thought her plate was a garbage can but obv that didnt make any sense. anyways, i guess life comes down to this. someone tries to break you down and then you throw a cup at a plate and realize life is funny. and you shouldnt take it so serious.

so, thats that.

on a more exciting topic...

Womens Fashion Inspiration for Winter 2009/10 Alert!!

cafe wear:

out on the town wear:cleaning my house wear:

YES!!!!  ok time to focus on life again.... back to the drawing board as far as steps to take for life improvement. step 1: write the last paper ill have to write till january. step 2: do my laundry. if only it was this fun...