le merm

so school started this week and it reminded me that a) that i'm still in nursing school and i'm not the wandering artist gypsy that i was starting to feel like i was (just kidding secretly i still am) also, b) i realized everyone in my program calls me Merm... in fact I think only one person actually calls me Maryam in LA... and yea since my blog is called mermstheword, i thought i would explain the root of this alter ego of mine. ive always thought of myself as a mermaid, although i can barely swim and im scared of the ocean. but besides that, i feel very mermaidlike... and i wish everyday i had sparkles and seastars and sand all over my body with long glittery hair with kelp and netting and rope intertwined all over. but not in the pornish halloween way, but more like a natural oceany sea lover.  and of course i'd love to have little seahorses come wake me up every morning with bubbles and songs in my big clam shell bed with lavender satin sheets ooh! god i gotta make that happen one day for realz. anyways, oonas the one that started started calling me Mermaid and then Mermz and then Merm and yea, I guess thats it.  

no way thats not it. its never it. i have waaay more to say.  Most importantly i must mention how completely obsessed i am with The Little Mermaid by Disney... my fave disney movie by far. Not only because it was the first movie I ever saw in a theatre at age... 8? i dunno. But mostly because I feel so connected to Ariel... we have so much in common. in the deepest of ways... i could really write a paper on this. we both are always trying to do something against the family norm... we both live in a constant state of dreaming... and we both are trying to get to the promise land aka upgrade our lives and explore the world. and we're both helplessly clueless about love and just cant help but do the stupidest things to be surrounded by it.

see doesnt this look like me? you know, when im with Coco (played by Flounder here) and getting yelled at by my dad... see i try to be so compliant and i really truly love my dad and want to make him happy but he just doesnt get it- i wanna have fun!

and lets not even get started on the whole prince eric metaphor. lets just not go there. the final thing is that i just googled the word "mermaid" in french... bc thats recently my favorite thing to do... look up every word i like and see what it is in french . so anyways, Sirene is mermaid in french which is crazy bc my new roommate Pegah decided we are going to pretend we are Blair and Serena from Gossip Girl, and i get to be Serena. how appropriate, mermaidwise. UM AND HELLO! did NOT know Serena was played by Blake Lively who is so cute and classic and wow what a compliment that i remind pegah of her in any capacity.

well, so heres to the next 6 months of living with my new roomie in our Upper East Side apartment... and by upper east side i really mean the upper east side of Venice Beach which is not as classy and posh, but whatever. i guess as usual i am living the hood version of the glam life. 

heres us talking about girly things on our couch:

heres us walking down Robertson ave. discussing important matters: